With every emotion, joyful or sad - whether you are happy or mad - energy enters your body and you assimilate it on 3 levels of your being - Physical, Emotional & Mental. You are 3-dimensional like that. What do you think? How do you feel? What is this moment trying to tell you?
Do you hold tight to Joy, and harbor a grudge? How can you release a grudge, when that's what you are trying to control? That's like pressing "play" and "pause" at the same time!
It's really all just energy!
I know firsthand that holding onto feelings will stop the energy flow and cause pain in your body. When you do not pay attention to emotional energy or intuitive whispers, the only place for energy to get your attention is within your body. May be a sudden pang, a stitch in the side, lower back begins to hurt. When it must, the body screams to be heard!
Just last week, I noticed my right shoulder aching and motion was restricted. Every time I moved it a certain way, it was a sharp pain and stopped me immediately from continuing whatever action I was doing - over and over again for days. I pondered a physical cause - what did I do to hurt my shoulder? No heavy lifting, no accidental injury - nothing at all. However, I definitely felt pain.
I reminded myself that I am a natural healer. My body knows exactly how to rejuvenate and heal without my resistance.
Pain came out in my shoulder, as shoulders bear the "burden of responsibility." Right side gives energy away, unless you are controlling energy, in which case it gets pent up and aches! Control is the opposite of release!
I was unaware that I was controlling. So, what was I controlling? If the pain was not from a physical cause, I asked myself what emotional energy wanted to flow?
After an anguishing day of silence and looking within, I realized there was a big issue about control. Thirty fives years of control to be exact. I obviously had energy stored as cellular memory begging to be released forever.
I had taken upon myself to control an emotional family secret and keep it hidden from my younger brothers and sisters. I was 16 years old. I did this for many years - more like 20 years. I took upon myself the responsibility to protect them so they would not be "hurt" like I was. I stopped the energy in my own life from flowing free by holding onto it, and they never got to experience it at all.
My shoulder pain needled me to come clean with old emotional truths. I was controlling the flow of life for my brothers and sisters. Their experiences may have been different if energy took it's natural course. I had never realized this angle of truth before.
I restricted the truth from flowing powerfully and effortlessly. That realization alone set my energy free.
Within a few hours, as time appeared to stand still, I had released the burden of this emotional energy forever. My shoulder pain disappeared after a hot bath with Epsom salts, rubbing my hands and feet, and listening to my soul speak in whispers. And, I could feel it go - as though it never hurt at all.
Believe it or not, secrets are energy held in one place for too long. The Addiction of Silence begins to set in. Misalignment with your energy's desire to flow. If you repress energy long enough from coming up and out, you shut down your voice! After being quiet for too long, the body can't hold onto the emotional baggage a moment longer.
Let me ask you - Is it really admirable to keep your finger in the dike? I thought I could put my thumb on a waterfall. Today my answer is very clear.
Release your energy - let it flow where it wants to go!